Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Monday, May 02, 2011

Ding dong the witch is dead...

So if you haven't seen the news tonight you will undoubtably see it soon enough and learn that Osama Bin Laden has been killed and his body is in US custody. And while someone being killed is most definitely not the topic I'd planned on talking about upon returning to blogging so soon after my mother's death - I think that maybe somewhere in this is a lesson - and perhaps a little healing......

Screenshot from CNN.com
I was watching a DVR'd episode of Army Wives and didn't even know Osama had been killed until I checked Facebook on my phone. The overwhelming amount of hoorays and joyous responses about Osama's demise prompted this post.


I will start by saying that the horrors faced due to the actions of Osama Bin Laden are unfathomable and I am most definitely glad that the immediate threat and dangers that Osama directly posed are over. But I do not now, nor will I ever rejoice over the loss of a life - no matter how atrocious the actions were that the person committed while alive.

I remember exactly where I was on 9/11 and how surreal it felt. I was sitting on the couch next to my then fiance (now ex) when his mom called and told us to turn on the news. We watched the plane crash into the second tower. I remember feeling tears roll down my cheeks as I saw people jump from the flaming buildings to their death. I started calling Red Cross and everyone else I could think of to offer my aid and see how I could help.

But what I DIDN'T do, not for one second, was fill my heart with anger and hatred and wish death on the person or people who were responsible. In those moments - I felt closer to God than I think I'd ever felt in my life and my heart filled with such a deep sadness, an almost paralyzing anguish over the actions I was witnessing. I could almost see Him crying, shaking His head and asking 'why'.

It was, I imagine, similar to the bone deep grief a parent must feel - watching their child go off on a horribly wrong path and knowing there was nothing you could do to guide them back to the way you'd brought them up in.

Though on a much lesser scale, that is kind of how I feel now - seeing so many people, both Christians and non rejoicing in Osama's death. Being happy and thankful he was killed.

While I don't always agree with the actions of our country, our involvement in matters that don't concern us, and are often not asked to participate in, I AM and always will be thankful for the freedoms I enjoy living here and I am most definitely grateful for the brave soldiers who volunteer their service and often their lives to fight for those freedoms.

That being said I cannot help but feel a heavy heart that so many of my fellow Americans seem to be so blood thirsty. The responses I've seen so far on Facebook range from giving thanks to the military for a job well done to all caps yelling for Osama to BURN IN HELL!!!!!!!

What he did and the deaths he was responsible for are terrible, so many lives were lost, so many loved ones living with missing parts of themselves. There is no question that his actions were those of an evil evil man. But does that make it right for us to rejoice in his death? Does Osama being a bad person make it any less wrong of us to be happy he's dead?


One person who commented on my post - the sister in law of my husband - and a military wife said that I'd feel differently if it was my husband over there fighting for our freedom. She said she was HAPPY Osama had been killed and blamed him for 'ten years of hell' that she'd endured as the wife of a serviceman. She's wrong.

Now I've no doubt I'm going to get a lot of, for lack of a better word, passionate replies to this, and will quite likely piss more than a few people off, but I am a strong believer in self responsibility and not blaming others and outside forces for our lives and the events in them so I wouldn't be me if I didn't say what I was thinking so here goes. Please know that there is absolutely NO disrespect intended toward our military or the families of our servicemen.

With all of that being said I ask this - did Osama make her husband enlist? Did Osama make her marry a military man? Did Osama make our troops go on a wild goose chase for WMDs and invade a country that we had no business being in? It was many actions of many people who goaded Osama into his war on America. Now please do not for one second think that I am excusing his actions - no way no how was anything he did even remotely OK in my book, but that being said I don't think it's OK for us to blame a crazy man for every bad thing that's happened over the last ten years.

The US is as I type randomly dropping bombs on Lybia - our 'part' in trying to help the Libyan people find their freedom. Do you for one second not think that innocent people are being killed by those air strikes? Women, men, children who are guilty of nothing more than being in an area of unrest - murdered. By our soldiers.

In any war there are casualties - sure the 'bad guys' usually get caught or killed in the end - but how many innocent people are slain along the way?

I have a friend who was an Army Ranger in Iraq and he told me stories of being ordered to open fire on shacks that suspected insurgents were hiding in and how after the building was basically shot to shreds they'd have to go in a do an 'assessment'. Do you know what he often found? Grandmothers crumpled over trying to shield their grandchildren. Mothers huddled over their babies. Oh yea - there may have been a bad guy in there too. So what - we say yay that the bad guy is dead and forget all the innocent lives lost?

There is NO loss of life that effects just one single person. Every single human on this planet is connected to at LEAST one other - so for every YAY we shout when a 'bad guy' an 'evil terrorist' is killed, we are also celebrating the loss of other innocents who were guilty of nothing more than being related to or living next to that 'bad guy'. You are also celebrating the death of someone who believe it or not someone else LOVED.

Some of the Christian's justification for their joy in Osama's death is that he 'reaped what he sewed', or that 'the wages of sin is death'. Some others are calling it karma. Most all are saying there is no room for forgiveness because he didn't repent for what he did.

I'm pretty sure the Romans didn't repent for nailing Jesus to the cross..... I'm also pretty sure He forgave them anyway.



'FORGIVE THEM FATHER FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO'

So before you rejoice in Osama's death, or the death of any terrorist, or rapist, or murderer or bad guy of the moment ask yourself this - are you the type of 'Proud American' that rejoices in death? Are you the type of Christian who doesn't forgive a wrong unless asked? Or are you the type of HUMAN who feels compassion for misguided actions, for lives lost?

And what if the bad guy were someone you knew.... grew up with.... loved? Would you want others celebrating that they were killed?

I know I wouldn't.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Put a little love in your heart

I finally found a home. A church home that is. Sunday morning I became a member of 1st Baptist Church of North Mobile. I've been looking for a new church for 2yrs now, since I left Michigan and I am so so happy to say I've finally found the one for me.

Moving is hard, you change friends, jobs, houses. But the most difficult change for me is finding a new church. My faith is very important to me, and over the years I've discovered that I really need the community, communion and companionship of other believers you get in a good church home. I look forward to hearing the Word, and singing praises to God. It lifts me, and gets me through the week.

Joining the church is a big step for me. It's not just saying ok, I dig the singing here and the pastor is pretty cool, so this is where I'll visit on Sunday's. For me it's a decision to open myself to letting people in, and letting myself out. It's a decision to learn again how to open my heart to relationships, and to love, in spite of the fear of being hurt, or let down, or disappointed.

I know it's one of the most preached verses in the Bible, the 'Love Chapter', but 1st Corinthians Chapter 13 has always been one of the most influential books in the Bible for me. Most especially the following-


1 Corinthians 13
7. It (love) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8. Love never fails...


Love isn't something I've had a lot of positive experience with in my life, but the idea, the hope, the faith that love, true love, all encompassing, agape love exists is something I've always held close to my heart.

I've been told I'm naive, that I'm holding on to a dream that only exists in story book fairy tales, but that's ok. I'd honestly rather hold on to the dream than settle for less and live disillusioned. My happy ever after is out there. I believe that. I can't not.


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Monday, May 12, 2008

Diamond engagement rings are a girls best...

Blah and humbug.

So I totally blew the NaBloPoMo by not posting yesterday. I know it's just one day, but I really wanted to say YaY Me! I did it!! I posted every single day for an entire month!!!

So why didn't I post? Well, yesterday was a blah day for me. It was mother's day and pretty much everyone in my family is a mother except me. That makes me sad. I also watched a sappy movie Saturday night that put me in even more of a funk because it was all lovey and happy ending and well, I've been single for quite some time now and it's finally got to the point where it really sucks. So everytime I sat down yesterday to post all I could think about was my broken dreams. Uplifting huh?

It's also been a blah month because May 5th would have been my 8th anniversary. Not wedding anniversary but the anniversary of the day my ex-fiance and I met. I was so close and well.. I guess God has other plans. Hopefully better ones!

I have to admit I was one of those girls who (secretly) dreamed of having a beautiful fairy tail wedding. Why secretly? Well because I'm not a girly girl and fairy tail weddings are definitely girly. I'd found my perfect dress in a magazine when I was like 12. I tore the page out and put it in a folder. I still have that picture. Times (and thank God fashions) have changed and I'm not so sure I would wear that dress now lol but then.. it was perfect.

When I was engaged the dressed I ended up picking out was much simpler. So was my
engagement ring.

My ex fiance and I went together and picked our rings out. We were well uhh not so wealthy and put them on layaway. My tastes have always been pretty simple, I don't like big extravagant diamond rings that cover the whole knuckle. I have a dinner ring that my grandmother left me that is covered in diamonds. It's huge. I won't wear it, it makes me nervous.

I was looking online today to try and find a ring that looked similar to both the engagement ring I had and the dinner ring my grandmother left me and found
Jamesallen.com.

I honestly never thought about buying an engagement ring offline. To me half the fun is going and picking it out with the person you love, but
Jamesallen.com has so many features that it's almost like going in a store. You can actually build your own ring. You can hand (mouse) select every feature from the band, to the setting, color, size and cut of the diamond(s). Now I don't know much about cut, color or clarity, but this site makes it so easy. It even has this neat little sliding scale so you can pick your price and carat range. Here's a screenshot.



They carry a wide variety of diamond engagement, wedding and anniversary rings. They offer extensive customer support, and education (which a gal like me could use) on all the things you need to know about picking out the perfect diamond, and the site is 100% secure. I'm looking over all the features as I type this and they even have a scrolling Jewelry News section on the front page. I just learned how to keep my pearls (if I had any) clean and polished.

The overall look of the site is not helping with my blahness. It's very sweet, and just screams... LOVE. OK so that's a good thing, I'm just being grouchy.

Maybe next time (hey miracles do still happen) I get engaged I'll used Jamesallen.com to pick out my ring. They have a 30 day return policy so that means my future fiance only has a month to screw up then he's stuck with me. Or well maybe not but at least I'll get to keep the ring!


Monday, February 18, 2008

In the words of....

The late great Marilyn Monroe:


I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I'm out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

Friday, February 15, 2008

The World's Shortest Fairy Tale

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl 'Will you marry me?'

The girl said: 'NO!'

And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, traveled more, had many lovers, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself.

She went to the theater, never watched sports, never wore friggin' lacy lingerie that went up her butt, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants and was pleasant all the time.

The End

**Note ~ the girl isn't me .. it's just a story people =)

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Blah Mushy Blah Heart Blah Day Blah


Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"



You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.

You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)

Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic

What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays

Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get


What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Say Hello to My Little Friend

This my dear people is my little friend.. These beautiful one inch square bites of rich delectable bitter sweet dark chocolate are not only my friend.. they are my salvation...They are the things of which poetry is written, sonets are sung, rainbows are created...



Not only are they a mouth watering slice of heaven.. they bring wisdom and insight!!



I jest you not! The Proof lies below...





No Truer Words Have Ever Been Spoken!




Is it now? Do you Promise??




Ahhh if I'd only read THIS ONE
before I read the LAST ONE.
I wouldn't need the NEXT ONE!




So much easier said than done..
Don't you agree?


What other creation offers so much.. while asking so little in return??


~Stuck in a job you hate because you're the only female in an office of 3.. the other 2 occupants being 2 men so overly stuffed with testosterone you struggle not to choke on it??


Have a Chocolate


~Roommate tells you she's moving out in 2 weeks because she's getting back with her husband. You can't afford rent by yourself and have no prospects in sight for a replacement roomie??

Have a Chocolate


~After 4 plus years of self imposed solitary confinement (because boys are stupid) you finally take a leap of faith & play nice with a boy, who's everything you ever dreamed of & could easily and joyfully see yourself bearing his children.. only to have it all fall apart because HE has more issues with the nice nice than YOU do?? (I was right.. boys ARE stupid)

Have a Chocolate


~Stuff yourself so full of Taco Bell that you swear you'll projectile vomit a chihuahua because you tried to drown your shattered heart and the loss of everything yo quiero in refried beans and red sauce?

Wait 3 Hours.. Then Have a Chocolate


And guess what.. a serving size.. is FIVE GLORIOUS PIECES!!!

That's five catastrophies, stresses, hurts, angers and general crappiness a day that can all be made better in one sumptuous little piece of nirvana.


Ok maybe they don't make everything really BETTER, but man.. for those few almost orgasmic minutes.. while the bitter sweet richness is slowly melting on your tongue..... you have a moment of hope that everything just might be ok..

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Excerpts from.....

The following is an excerpt from the book "Home with God; in a Life that Never Ends". Written by Neale Donald Walsch. This is a conversation that took place between Neale and God. In this part of the book Neale asks God the question in the first 2 paragraphs.... what follows was God's answer to him.
It touched me.. and I hope it touches you.

Neale: May I ask you what may seem like a strident question?


God: Certainly


Neale: Why do we have to reach out to you before you reach out to us? If you really are an all-knowing God, then you must know when we need help. If you really are an all-merciful God, then you must be willing to offer that help -- without our asking. If we are already on our knees, bent over in utter defeat, why must we grovel even more and plead with you to rescue us? If you are an all-loving God, why don't you love us enough to help us without us having to beg you?

And while we're at it, what do you say to those who would tell you, "I have called out to you, and you have not been there! Do you think I have not asked for God's help? For God sake, why do you think I'm so desperate! I'm so desperate because it seems like even God has let me down! I'm utterly deserted here. And I want none of it anymore. I'm done. Finished. Through"

What do you say to that person, huh?

God: I say......
I want you to consider now the possibility of a miracle. There is a reason why you have not experienced receiving a solution from me, but that reason is not important in this moment. What is important in this moment is for you to consider the possibility that now, right now in front of you, there is an answer. Open you eyes and you will see it. Open your mind and you will know it. Open your heart and you will feel it there.

I say.....
Only if you call out to me in absolute knowing will you be aware that your answer has been given you. Because it is what YOU know. what YOU feel, and what YOU declare that will be true in your experience. If you call out to me in hopelessness, I will be there, but your despair may blind you, and block you from seeing me.

I say.....
Nothing you have done is so horrible, nothing you have had happen to you is so beyond repair, that it cannot be healed. I can and shall make you whole again.

Yet you must stop judging yourself. the one making the strongest judgment is you. Others may judge you from the outside looking in, but they do not know you, they do not see you, and so their judgments are not valid. Do not make them valid by taking them on as your own. They have no meaning

Do not wait for others to see you as you really are, for they see you through the eyes of their own pain. Know instead, that I see you now, in wonder, and in truth, and that what I see of you is Perfect. As I look upon you I have but one thought: "This is my beloved, in who I am well pleased."

I say....
Forgiveness is not necessary in the Kingdom of God. God cannot be offended or damaged in any way. There is only one question of importance in the entire universe, and it has nothing to do with your guilt or innocence. It has to do with your identity. "Do you know who you really are"? When you do, all thoughts of loneliness disappear, all ideas of unworthiness evaporate, all contemplations of hopelessness transmute into wondrous awareness of the miracle that is your life. And the miracle that is you.

And finally, my beloved I say.....
You are surrounded in this very moment by a hundred thousand angels. Accept, now, their ministrations. And then, pass their gift on to others. For it is in giving that you shall receive, and it is in healing that you shall be healed. The miracle for which you have been waiting has been waiting for you. You will know then when you become the miracle that another awaits.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Thoughts for the new year...