Saturday Matthew and I went to MS to spend the day visiting with my nieces and get a fitting from my mom for our costumes for the Renaissance Faire in November.
We ate pizza at my sisters.
We ate McDonald's on the drive home back to Mobile.
I think you can see where this is going.
We're doing a fine balancing act between eating really healthy, and eating really un-healthy. We've not completely fallen off the wagon, but we can't seem to get back completely on it either.
Maybe this, just like everything else in my life, is something I need to try and find balance in. Being obsessive compulsive means things usually have to be all or nothing for me, but I'm finding that life rarely works that way and some times.... whether you like it or not.... you have to live in shades of grey.
We ate pizza at my sisters.
We ate McDonald's on the drive home back to Mobile.
I think you can see where this is going.
We're doing a fine balancing act between eating really healthy, and eating really un-healthy. We've not completely fallen off the wagon, but we can't seem to get back completely on it either.
Maybe this, just like everything else in my life, is something I need to try and find balance in. Being obsessive compulsive means things usually have to be all or nothing for me, but I'm finding that life rarely works that way and some times.... whether you like it or not.... you have to live in shades of grey.
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Mollie:
I struggled with food and weight issues from the time I was about 11 until I was 28 or so. I dieted, I restricted, I over-exercised, I binged...I practically ran the full spectrum of disordered eating patterns.
And I hated myself and saw food as the enemy the whole time.
I consider myself "recovered" now, and one of the big breakthroughs was learning the art of moderation. I found that for me, labelling foods as "bad" was like planting a big ole flashing sign on top of it that said, "EAT ME!!" and was the surest way to lead to a binge.
Once I realized that I would eat ANY food in moderation, much of those unhealthier foods lost a lot of their appeal. I can have that whenever I want to...but I'm choosing NOT to, because it's just not a loving, healthy choice for myself right now.
And that's another thing, too - looking at how I fuel my body as a choice to do something loving for myself. Sure, I still indulge when I feel like it and don't always make the best choices, but the majority of the time I do, because I care about myself and my health too much not to.
Have you ever read any books by Geneen Roth? You might find what she has to say helpful in coming to terms with your relationship with food. I read several of her books years ago and found them to be great.
After all those years of struggling with food and my body, I am finally at a place in my life where (outside of pregnancy) I've maintained a pretty consistent weight. I've got a range that I fall within, and for the most part, I'm happy with where I'm at. It's not perfect, but it's good enough for me to be satisfied with.
Anyhow, another rambling comment from me. If you want to talk any time via email, just drop me a line, okay? sunshinemama123@gmail.com
*hugs*
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