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Monday, January 12, 2009

Down the rabbit hole we go...

I'm late! I'm late! For a very important date!!

Last Thursday I had my first 'date' since
PT. I say 'date' because it wasn't like a normal date. The guy the date was with was someone I'd been friends with for a while. Someone I'd never pictured myself being intersted in. But after a bit of inspiration and self examination courtesy of Jim Carey ala YES! Man, I took a deep breath, swallowed the little red pill, had a chat with him and we've decided to give it a go at being more than friends.

Since we're already friends, and he knew how freaked out I was at the idea of possibly 'liking' him, he suggested something more casual and relaxed for our first 'date'. Thursday evening he picked up some Chinese and we relaxed at my apartment and watched a movie. For all of you Jet Li and Jackie Chan fans, The Forbidden Kingdom is - eh. But what wasn't eh was how comfortable we were together.

I've never really dated before. My ex-fiance and I kind of just 'were', having met online then moving in together a week after the first time we met, we were together 3 years but we never really 'dated'. PT was my first date in over 8yrs and we just had such intense physical chemistry that I don't think it would have mattered what we did or where we went, we just wanted to make out with each other. So being able to skip the whole getting to know someone and trying to impress them at the same time thing has been fantastic.

The movie ended around 9:30 and after talking about it for a bit we decided that he would stay. The night.

I know, I know. You're thinking - wow that was fast, maybe you should slow down, you're just trying to see if you can be more than friends, and you're already sleeping with him?!?

The thing is - Sleeping is exactly what we did. There was no sex, and it was wonderful. I'd completely forgotten how incredible it felt to sleep wrapped in the arms of someone that you trusted, that you knew cared about you just because you were you and they were glad to have you in their life. So we went to bed, we talked, cuddled, talked some more, then finally drifted off to sleep wrapped around each other.

And I've been smiling ever since.

We've talked every night since then, he's come over twice after he got off work and we stayed up talking until around midnight then he went home, and he's stayed the night twice more. And we talk and talk and talk and cuddle and talk some more.

I'm not sure if a 'romantic' relationship is something that will come of this, but what I do know is that just by opening myself up to trusting him in a different way, we've become so much closer and regardless of whether we end up a 'couple' or not neither of us have any doubt that we have taken a step toward something wonderful and magical and no matter if we're just loving each other, or falling 'in' love with each other our friendship will continue to flourish and grow.

He's coming over this Thursday evening and we're going to go see an Independant film at the Crescent Theater in downtown Mobile. We've also planned to go to Winter Jam together in February.

Oh yea, and he's going to

The first one I've ever had :)

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Ella said...

huge
ginormous
smile