I'm gonna be...

A BEAUTY

On the way back to the office from lunch I heard this song.. I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

So I thought I'd share =) Cuz I'm nice like that lol

The video is the only one I could find with the entire song. It's just some clips a fan put to the song. Lyrics are below the video.

Beauty - Ayiesha Woods




Never been the kind that the world defined ,
as being some trendy, top, super model
Never been the one you could call a swan ,
even though my mama said that they oughtta
So say a prayer for the girl with the hand me downs,
and the pig tails in her hair
One for me, one for you cause we never knew
that God don't even care

If you've got the walk and ain't got the talk
And ain't got the stuff that they dream of
Cause there'll be a beautiful day

Cause I...I, I'm gonna be a beauty!
I'm gonna see God y'all, and I'm gonna be a beauty!
Tell me you believe it

I'm a long way from home but I'm passing through
Seem like everything is so artificial
Cause everything that we see in the magazines or even on TV is so superficial
It's like a virus, I can't describe it, how shallow we can be
We say true beauty comes from the inside but all that we can see

She's got the walk - he's got the talk
And they've got the stuff the world dreams of
But there will be a beautiful day…

Cause I...I, I'm gonna be a beauty!
I'm gonna see God y'all, and I'm gonna be a beauty!
Tell me you believe it

What you see ain't what you get
Cause you ain't seen nothin' yet
What they see ain't who you are
Cause you're gonna be a shining star..

Cause I...I, I'm gonna be a beauty!
I'm tellin ya'll I... I, I'm gonna be a beauty!
I'm gonna see God y'all, and I'm gonna be a beauty!
Tell me you believe it

To everything.. turn, turn turn

There is a season.. a time for Change!

If you're here then you've noticed things look a bit different. Well you'll only notice they're different now if you've been here before. In which case I say Thank you for returning! If this is your first visit. Where the hell have you been?!?


*crickets, chirp, chirp*


I really need to stop thinking I'm so damn funny.

I've decided, ok not so much decided as stumbled headfirst into the realization, that it's time to take my life in a different direction.

"Ummm Mollie", you say (hi, I'm Mollie btw - nice to meet you), Your title says Crazy Cat Lady.. isn't that the uh Wrong direction?


Precisely!!


Confused?

It's ok.. confused isn't so bad a place.. I visit there often. Usually I'll stop there during my even more frequent travels along the streets of "I'm going to over analyze things now" & "but I just don't Understand!" I wouldn't recommend staying there long though. It's more one of those "I'd like to visit but wouldn't want to live" kind of places.

Last year brought around many a realizations, moments of enlightenment, changes, determinations, melt downs and even an epiphany or two.

So it was as I was standing in Wal-mart *expletive* totally fascinated with a CAT TOY that I decided it's high past time for me to get my ass in gear and get a life.

Yesterday I waxed poetic about the beauty of Mobile, AL and realized that.. hmm other than driving to work, and driving from work, and the occasional trip to the store I have no idea what Mobile is all about. There's a LOT of really cool stuff here.

Don't be a smarty pants.. I looked online. That's how I know.

I've been using this blog as an outlet for well.. pretty much everything. Good days, bad days, funny days, sad days. Ha I rhymed. See I told you I need a life.

Well that's going to change. I still am the same gal who loves life, saving the planet, ending world hunger and poverty etc. but I'm going to leave that kind of stuff for my MySpace page. This blog is going to become the journal so to speak of my forays into the world of (whispered) dating. I say Into rather than Back into because well.. folks.. sad as it is to say. I've never dated. I went on uhh I think 2 dates in my early twenties, met my now ex fiance online in May of 2000, talked with him for a few weeks then moved in with him. That lasted 3 yrs. My first and so far only relationship took up the years of my life from ages 25 to 28. I'm now 32. I've been single, celibate and undated since November of 2003. We actually "broke up" for the last time in April, but as many of you probably know.. well.. just because you're "broken up" doesn't mean you stop boinking. November 2003 was when the dust bunnies and cobwebs took up residence in my hoo-ha. For those of you who don't speak cute genital nic name language, my vagina.

I'll give you a moment...

You're probably thinking.. either this girl is busted butt ugly, or she's nuts, or a martyr.

That's me. You decide lol

I was always a very mature, responsible, independent child. Those characteristics have only increased as I've gotten older. I was more interested in school and sports than boys so I guess I never seemed approachable by guys growing up. I was one of the guys. Much more tomboy than girly girl. Plus I didn't put out.. at all. I didn't even kiss on the first date. Well the 2 dates I had. So apparently that put me off the being asked out grid. I could spend hours upon hours trying to figure out why I was single until I was 25, but for the most part I suppose it was all just a choice.

After my ex-fiance and I stopped seeing each other I was too devastated to even think about putting myself back "out there". Why do people say "out there"? It makes dating and relationships sound like this whole other scary planet or something. No wonder I stayed away from it lol. Omg you're going "out there"?!? Where the single, horny, lonely, crazy people are?!? Nooo stay HERE.. where the realllllllly single, horny, lonely, crazy people are! It's SAFER.

See me rolling my eyes.

Anyway, it's been 4 years and by golly it's time. Yes I said by golly, get over it. I'm strange. I know it and I'm ok with it. Sort of. Mostly. Sometimes.

The problem I'm facing now is I'm relatively new to the city in which I live and I don't know anyone. I love dancing but going to a bar or club alone just isn't all that appealing to me. Plus I'm "wookin por nub" not a hook-up or an std or being cut up in little pieces and stuffed in a trunk.

So I bequeath thee, my 3 readers. Help a sistah out! How do you meet people when you don't know anyone? Where dost thou frequent to put one's self "out there"?

I can promise you the stories to follow - If I ever actually get asked on a date that is - will induce laughter.

Disclaimer:

Potential suitors must meet the following requirements:

• Have a JOB
• Have their OWN place or at least a place they share with a roommate, not the room they grew up in as a kid in their parent's house. Unless they now own said house and live there minus the parents.
• Be in possession of their own personal transportation. Preferably CLEAN, or at least somewhat clean.
• Not smoke, and only drink occasionally, or socially if at all.
• Not expect to get laid or participate in an avid game of tonsil hockey the first time we meet.
• Speak E N G L I S H - yo babe holla, is not an acceptable form of grammar and does not constitute a complete sentence.
• Be passionate - about life, love, liberty and the pursuit of dark chocolate.
• Beginning to see why I don't date?!?

Update...

I'm in the bathroom this morning getting ready and I hear... BOOM.. CRASH... Slideeeee

Then silence.....


Now knowing my cats I wasn't overly worried about the boom, crash part. They're always getting into something. Knocking books off the shelf, opening and closing the kitchen cabinets, toppling over the garbage can to dig out that half eaten chocolate chip cookie. (I tossed it b/c it was burnt - I Never waste anything chocolate.. I promise)

It was the ensuing silence that concerned me. My cats+silence=BAD. Either they're into something they really shouldn't be.. i.e. finishing off that chocolate chip cookie, or they've injured themselves to the point of not being able to screech like well an injured cat.

I slowly and quietly tip toe around the corner of the hallway into the living room. Super Stealth is required to actually catch them in the act of doing something they shouldn't be.

And I see this....

This is where it was before....

How in the world they managed to not only tip it over, but turn it around and slide it across the floor 6 feet is beyond me. I put it back where it was and left for work.

I fully expect it to be in the bathtub when I get home.

It's official....

I've become the crazy cat lady.



Well I'm about 2864 cats short from officially being a Crazy "Cat" Lady..
I'm crazy.. sometimes.. and I'm a Lady.. again sometimes but I only have 2 kitties.

My children..

Well my children until I birth or adopt real children, human children, at which point they (my cat children) will be signed up for kitty therapy and behavioral modification classes where they will be informed that they are indeed ANIMALS.. and taught to act like GASP pets.

The trama.. I know



Yes that's me underneath the covers. This is what I wake up to.. DAILY

See, just like real kids.. jumping on you at 5am wanting breakfast.

Oh... the joy

I'm starting to sound a little crazy here so I'll get to what qualifies me to have joined the the ranks of 32yr old spinsters across the nation.. (starting?? Mollie, really,, just starting to sound crazy?.. hellooo.)

Please disregard that. I normally reserve my conversations with myself for a more private time.

Fudge that's depressing!!!

OHH forget it... Just look








Is this not just THE most absolute coolest thing you have EVER SEEN!?!?

Really I mean EVERRRRR?!?! THE Coolest!!??!

I went to Wal-mart.. God I hate Wal-mart.... hate, hate, hate, hate... ok I don't "hate" anything. but I really really really dislike it a LOT! Never can you go in and just get one thing. Not possible.

They have I think subliminal messages playing when you walk in the door. "You need moreeeeeeee stuffffffff, one thing is nottttt enoughhhhhh, must spend tooo muchhh moneyyyy"

I digress.

As I was saying, I went to Wal-mart to get cat litter. That's IT, just one bag of ground up stuff that my cats can pee in and poo in and track all over the hardwood floors in my apartment so that I have to sweep at least every other day.


And I see THIS



I'm not ashamed.. I admit it.. I stood, frozen to the spot, eyes like laser beams rooted to the box.

*note-this is not the box I bought.. it's one I found online. My camera phone decided to take a crap and not send anymore pictures tonight so I couldn't post the picture of MY box, which is in much better shape and not all crumpled at the edge like some careless heathen mongrols handled it.

Imagining how much fun & noise my cats would have with this wondrous contraption. I caved. What can I say.. I'm a good mommy. Cat mommy, Cat owner person.. whatever.

Putting the damn thing together.. well that's another story for another day.. it's too late in the evening for the angry foul language such a tale would require.

Suffice to say I was right (as if I'm ever anything else.. psh) and they love it. They are both, as I type, and probably as you later read lying in their new toy. My hopes are that they will be soooo enraptured by this new toy, (yes I'm dilusional, we've established that) that they will have this crazy desire to spend the weeeee early hours of the morning enjoying the soft comfort of it and let me sleep at least until an hour before my alarm goes off (I never manage to stay asleep until the actual time it goes off) rather than pouncing on my head at 5am.




Who's taking bets I'll have cat ass in my face tomorrow morning..

It's days like today.....

That I realize just how much I really enjoy living in Mobile.

These are two pictures I took from my car on the drive to work this morning.

The majority of my drive to work is on Dauphin Street and a big portion of this street somewhat resembles the scene in Rain Man where Charlie and Raymond are walking from the hospital..

The camera pans out and you see trees lined down each side of the road, so full they meet in the middle over the street. Adding to all of the exquisite foilage are mile after mile of beautiful homes.

This is a church that's about 2 blocks down from my apartment..

About 2 miles from where I live you can find Wintzel's Oyster House.. Now I'm not big on oysters but they have some fantastic seafood gumbo...




Another really cool thing Mobile has plenty of is great architecture..

This is a medical plaza I pass on my way to work




The entire surface of the building is glass. Well I imagine the roof isn't lol but you know what I mean.

This is downtown, near where I live.



The top of the really pointy building behind the statue of Mr. d'Iberville is soon to be: The Spa @ The Battle House opening September 2008. Discover a legendary Mobile, Alabama hotel and resort that captures classic Southern charm at The Battle House, A Renaissance Hotel.

The things you find when you do a little research!!!

There's a light purple..yes purple mansion on the corner where I live that has a sign hanging from the lattice work that says Mauvila Mansion.. well I live in Mauvila Court Apartments, and have frequently wondered if maybe that used to be the name of the neighborhood once upon a time. Apparently it's a Bed & Breakfast now.

This is the house... it's 266ft from my front door.



Here's a bit of it's history: Mauvila Mansion a grand stick Italianate home, was built in 1871 by Duncan Parker, a cotton merchant and early sheriff of Mobile. The house is situated on almost two acres in the midtown area of Mobile Alabama.

During its history, the mansion has seen many uses. It has been a private home, a guesthouse hosting elegant weddings, receptions and teas, and a boarding house serving family style lunch daily.

I live about a half mile from Government street (aka Hwy 90). There is a park on Gov't where I used to go sit for lunch (when I worked downtown). here is a tree in front of that park.



Here is a tree just down the street from that, at the Chamber of Commerce.



Now I don't know about you, but I'm a bit of a nature freak. I LOVE being outdoors. I am perfectly content to just sit in a park, or heck for that matter on my front steps and watch people, breathe the fresh air and feel the sun and wind on my face.

With scenery like this it's no wonder I love it here!

Once...

There was a song.. from a movie.. that won an Oscar

This is it



FALLING SLOWLY
The Swell -(Glen Hansard, Marketa Irglova)

I dont know you
but I want you
all the more for that
words falls through me
and always fool me
and I cant react
and games that never amount
to more than they're meant
will play themselves out

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopefull voice you have a choice
you've made it now

falling slowly, eyes that know me
and I cant go back
moods that take me and erase me
and I'm painted black
you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
its time that you won

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopefull voice you had a choice
you've made it now

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
raise your hopefull voice you had a choice
you've made it now
falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Imagine...

Close your eyes.... clear your mind... listen... and.....IMAGINE

If ever a song.. no not a song so much as the pure perfect beauty of the sound of it being sung could inspire me to look past the distraught place this world has found itself in and hope, believe, imagine a better time, a better place, a better way... this is it.

Eye health & being informed...

So about a week ago I started noticing a spot in the lower part of my vision in my right eye that looked like a little grey circle. I could see it better when looking at light objects or the wall and it moved with my eyes.. if I looked right, it moved right.. if I looked left.. etc.

Floaters can have several different shapes and densities. Mine looks similar to the circle in the top middle of this picture.



Being a bit OCD I tend to be very in tune to my body and notice changes almost immediately. I also have perfect vision so this little spot became annoying almost instantaneously.

I've been in the medical on and off for several years and am somewhat knowledgeable about most areas of general health and if I'm not I waste no time checking out Web MD or other sources online to find information, so I knew that seeing things in my vision could possibly be very bad.

Thankfully this was not the case for me. I went to the eye doc today and the vision is still perfect and the floater is a normal progression that occurs with age. I'm sorry did I just say "occurs with age"?! I'm 32.. not 70!.. Sigh.. Apparently some things don't wait that long.

BUT... floaters can also be signs of retinal detachment which if left untreated most always ends in blindness so I thought I'd share some general information with the 3 people who read my blog. =) Thank you gals and guy.. I'm greatly appreciative!

Eye Floaters

Floaters are little "cobwebs" or specks that float about in your field of vision. They are small, dark, shadowy shapes that can look like spots, thread-like strands, or squiggly lines. They move as your eyes move and seem to dart away when you try to look at them directly. They do not follow your eye movements precisely, and usually drift when your eyes stop moving.

In most cases, floaters are part of the natural aging process and simply an annoyance. They can be distracting at first, but eventually tend to "settle" at the bottom of the eye, becoming less bothersome. They usually settle below the line of sight and do not go away completely. Most people have floaters and learn to ignore them; they are usually not noticed until they become numerous or more prominent. Floaters can become apparent when looking at something bright, such as white paper or a blue sky.

Floaters occur when the vitreous, a gel-like substance that fills about 80 percent of the eye and helps it maintain a round shape, slowly shrinks. As the vitreous shrinks, it becomes somewhat stringy, and the strands can cast tiny shadows on the retina. These are floaters.

Floaters are more likely to develop as we age (there's that phrase again!) and are more common in people who are very nearsighted, have diabetes, or who have had a cataract operation. There are other, more serious causes of floaters, including infection, inflammation (uveitis), hemorrhaging, retinal tears, and injury to the eye.

Sometimes a section of the vitreous pulls the fine fibers away from the retina all at once, rather than gradually, causing many new floaters to appear suddenly. This is called a vitreous detachment, which in most cases is not sight-threatening and requires no treatment. However, a sudden increase in floaters, possibly accompanied by light flashes or peripheral (side) vision loss, could indicate a retinal detachment. A retinal detachment occurs when any part of the retina, the eye's light-sensitive tissue, is lifted or pulled from its normal position at the back wall of the eye. A retinal detachment is a serious condition and should always be considered an emergency. If left untreated, it can lead to permanent visual impairment within two or three days or even blindness in the eye. Those who experience a sudden increase in floaters, flashes of light in peripheral vision, or a loss of peripheral vision should have an eye care professional examine their eyes as soon as possible.

For people who have floaters that are simply annoying, no treatment is recommended. On rare occasions, floaters can be so dense and numerous that they significantly affect vision. In these cases, a vitrectomy, a surgical procedure that removes floaters from the vitreous, may be needed. A vitrectomy removes the vitreous gel, along with its floating debris, from the eye. The vitreous is replaced with a salt solution. Because the vitreous is mostly water, you will not notice any change between the salt solution and the original vitreous. This operation carries significant risks to sight because of possible complications, which include retinal detachment, retinal tears, and cataract. Most eye surgeons are reluctant to recommend this surgery unless the floaters seriously interfere with vision.

So if you notice anything different about your vision.. however small it's always better to be safe than sorry and go get it checked out!!

Wishing you all a happy, healthy Monday!

This one time...

Excerpts from the shit I listen to at work....

When I was in the military.. oh ya.. I used to lead PT.. I loved that shit.. everyone having to listen to me.. Ready.. Move! so ya I made this gym at my house.. it's kick ass..what.. want me to tell you how many reps I can do with my penis? Did I tell you this one time.. when I kicked this mu'fu**ers ass for running his mouth to me.. he was on the floor bleeding and shit.. six minute abs.. ha no you do 15 sets.. doesn't matter how many reps.. the rule is between 4 and 10.. man I was sore for a minute, but I did 23423 lbs.. no preacher curls.. when I worked for Kirby.. hell ya.. top of the team.. number one sales guy.. I rocked that shit.. knock on people's door.. excuse me.. can I take a look at your floor for a second.. then just slip right in.. got 'em every time. I think I'm gonna take up a new hobby.. buy an old car fix it up.. no I don't know anything about cars.. who needs to.. no the internet.. shitt I can put anything together..


Please... Please.. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE someone show me some mercy and shove an ice pick in my ears... Please?

It's a rainy day

Why is it that some rainy days...

~Inspire you to curl up on the sofa with a fuzzy blanky, a cup or warm cocoa and a good book.

While other rainy days....

~Leave you feeling just... blah, with no desire to do anything except crawl in bed and pull the covers over your head.

Simple steps to a happy day...

Tips for an exceptional, superb & powerful life!


1.) Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate antidepressant.

2.) Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if necessary.

3.) Buy a TIVO (DVR), to tape your late night shows and therefore get more sleep.

4.) When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to________ today.'

5.) Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

6.) Watch more movies, play more games and read more books than you did last year.

7.) Always pray and make time to exercise.

8.) Spend more time with people over the age of 70, and under the age of 6.

9.) Dream more while you are awake.

10.) Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat fewer foods that are manufactured in plants.

11.) Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.

12.) Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13.) Clear your clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.

14.) Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead, invest your energy in the positive present moment.

15.) Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class....... but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

16.) Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.

17.) Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.

18.) Life isn 't fair, but it's still good.

19.) Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

20.) Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21.) You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22.) Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

23.) Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

24.) Ladies - Go on and burn those 'special' scented candles, use the 600 thread count sheets, the good china and wear our fancy lingerie now. Stop waiting for a special occasion. Everyday is special.

25.) No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26.) Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will all this matter?'

27.) Forgive everyone for everything.

28.) What other people think of you is none of your business.

29.) Time heals almost everything. Give time, time!

30.) However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

31.) Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch with them.

32.) Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

33.) Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. God provides remember?!

34.) The best is yet to come...........in Heaven!

35.) No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

36.) Do the right thing!

37.) Call your family often.

38.) Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: 'I am thankful for __________.' And Today, I accomplished _________.

39.) Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

40.) Enjoy the ride. Remember that this is not Disney World, and you certainly don't want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life, so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.

What my name says about me...

You entered: Mollie Jo Spiers (name at birth)
There are 14 letters in your name.
Those 14 letters total to 69
There are 6 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Irish Female From the Gaelic Maili which is a pet form of Mary: bitter.

English Female From the Gaelic Maili which is a pet form of Mary, meaning bitter.


Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

Find out what your name says about you HERE

It's just one of those days......

"Beautiful Disaster"
Jon Mclaughlin

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same, everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Just assuming she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
She's only 17 but so tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She would change everything, for happy every after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home

When you wish you were like everyone else...

In the words of....

The late great Marilyn Monroe:


I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I'm out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

The World's Shortest Fairy Tale

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl 'Will you marry me?'

The girl said: 'NO!'

And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, traveled more, had many lovers, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself.

She went to the theater, never watched sports, never wore friggin' lacy lingerie that went up her butt, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants and was pleasant all the time.

The End

**Note ~ the girl isn't me .. it's just a story people =)

In lieu of mushy heart day.. I would like to wish you all..

A Happy National Condom Awareness Day!..

How To Properly Use a Condom


And for the Ladies...
How to Properly Use a Female Condom


Peace, Love and Safe Nookie!

Your Friend,

Mollie

Blah Mushy Blah Heart Blah Day Blah

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.

You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)

Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic

What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays

Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get


What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

When I go....

Some uplifting and jovial conversation for today..(note slight sarcasm here) lol

In the office this morning my boss and co-worker were talking about what song they wanted to be played at their funeral. How this topic came up.. I have no idea.. they're guys.. who knows why they talk about what they talk about lol

Michael.. the 20 something tech support guy wants "Free Bird" by Lynyrd Skynyrd

"If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me, For I must be travelling on, now,cause theres too many places I've got to see.", "Cause I'm as free as a bird now.. and this bird you cannot change"


Chad.. my boss, who's 36, wants "Stuck in the Middle With You" by Bob Dylan

"Well I don’t know why I came here tonight. I’ve got the feeling that something ain’t right.I’m so scared in case I fall off my chair,and I’m wondering how I’ll get down the stairs. Clowns to the left of me! Jokers to the right! Here I am stuck in the middle with you"

(insert raised eyebrow)I wonder who he's planning on being buried between lol


Michael's song choice.. I can see.. Chad's?? Yea.. I guess I'm missing something there

So after some less than on-key renditions of their choices they asked me what song I wanted played at my funeral.

Well ya know.. I can't say that I've ever really actually thought about it. I mean that's just a bit depressing doncha think? I don't believe in "death" so to speak. I believe life is truly eternal, never ending, always transforming. I don't believe that we "die", rather that we change forms and move from one dimension of "Life" to another. So while death is not something I fear, it's not something I tend to comtemplate on a regular basis.

I asked my mom once.. where she wanted to be buried when she passed.. it was kind of awkward. But being the oldest it will probably be primarily my responsibility to take care of matters when the time comes. Plus my brother and sister are much closer to my mother than I, as cold as it may sound, so I imagine that I'll be the one who will be able to pull it together enough to get things done and if you've come to know me at all you'll know that I'm a bit of a freak about planning and organization. I figured it would be a good thing to know.

What I have thought about in regards to my death is that I don't want people to mourn my passing. No being sad. I want my family and friends to celebrate the life I've lived and rejoice that I've gone on to a better place. I want them to feel OK.. and know that at last.. I've finally come to a place where I will be totally, unconditionally loved, accepted and at peace. I hope to feel a semblance of those things at least once while I'm alive.. but I have no doubt that in the presence of my Father... the Joy, Love, and just all encompassing feeling of completeness will be indescribable.

So after thinking about it for a few minutes it came to me.. and I've decided that the song I want played at my funeral is "I can Only Imagine" by Mercy Me. Not once have I heard this song that it didn't fill me with awe. To think.. of what it will be like.. when I'm finally face to face with my Father... it's like.. I can FEEL His big strong arms wrap themselves around me.. holding me close....safe....loved..... home

It seems fitting to me.. and I'd like my family and friends.. to be able to know how I felt about passing on. I think this song is perfect to accomplish that.

Below is the video for the song.. below that is the lyrics




I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk By your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory,
what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus
or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence
or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah,
will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever Forever
worship You
I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

New Growth...

Ya so this blog is not about me having some kind of spiritual, mental or emotional epiphany that has and will forever change the depth of my character and the way I look at the world...

..... it's much more serious than that.


Somewhere around the beginning of last year, I don't recall the month I went to the salon with a picture of how I wanted my hair cut. I wasn't getting much cut... just getting the hair cut that had grown out some shaped up. I was letting my hair GROW OUT.


Well, the gal that cut my hair the previous time wasn't there anymore, so I was stuck trying out a newbie. Not a newbie hairdresser, she'd been cutting hair for some time.. she was just a newbie cutting MY hair.


Ya know how they say doctors and nurses are the worst patients? Well people who cut hair.. ok scratch that.. maybe not all stylist are bad customers.. Maybe it's just me. I cut hair.. and I am the worst stylee. (stylistee, er hair dressee? you get the picture) I've never gone to school for hair, it's just a natural talent I have. My mom went to cosmotology school when I was an infant and I suppose growing up watching her be the family barber took root and I've been cutting/coloring/styling hair since I was about 16. I've done people's hair for pageants, dances and weddings, etc. I was also a "professional" make-up artist for a bit.. boy that was fun ha!


Anyway.. I've always been VERY picky about who cuts my hair. For most of my childhood it was long and all one length and my mom cut it. Then I started wanting styles and layers and she quit. She said she'd rather some other poor idiot take the chance of incurring my wrath for messing up my hair than her.


I'm not vain about many things in my life but I have GREAT hair and I like to keep it that way.. yup I admit it.. I'm conceited about my hair.. deal with it. I also have a rather unusual combination of having very very thick, relatively fine hair. Thick hair is usually more coarse.. and fine hair usually tends to be more on the thin side. Not mine. So when I go into a salon I go in with very specific precise instructions. Things that work on most people's hair don't work on mine.


Razoring for texture?? Ha not unless you want me to razor the tips of your fingers off to the nub. Pull out the thinning shears to take away "some of the bulk"? I'll thin your head right off your shoulders. Now I know that may sound a bit harsh.. but trust me.. I've had enough horrifying experiences of someone who "knew what they were doing" totally screw up my hair from not listening to me to know what works and what doesn't. I know my hair, I know what certain styles, cuts and cutting instruments do to my hair.


So anyway.. as I was saying.. somewhere at the beginning of last year I went in to get my hair shaped up. It had grown to a couple of inches below my shoulders. These are the pictures I went in with...




Isn't she just YUMMY..


Miss Tiffani Amber Theissen and I have a somewhat similar facial structure.. and I've found that most of the hairstyles she's had.. I can pretty successfully pull off. So from about the age of 17, she's been my hair model. I've been told (picture me minus a lotta buncha pounds) that she and I resemble. Lord I can only wish.. if I looked like her.. sheesh.. I'd so do myself!..



Shakes my head..snap out of it Mollie!!


Sorry, forgive me.. I digress.


Well THIS is closer to the hairstyle I ended up with..(subtract an inch or so, add some really BADLY chopped up layers):




Again with the yumminess... mmmm




Ok here's the actual result.. I just wanted to post another picture of her...






Granted this isn't a BAD cut.. and I've had a similar style more than once.. but it's about FOUR INCHES SHORTER than what I wanted.. and I'd just spent the better part of a year trying to GROW MY HAIR OUT!!


Soooo my hair has grown out a good bit since then.. and I'm waiting until it's a good bit more grown out before I risk getting it cut again. See me now:



Yayyyy growing hair!




Now HERE is the reason for this blog:




WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!?



I seem to be experiencing some sort of freakish new hair growth spurt.. and no matter what I do it's determined to stick STRAIGHT UP on top of my head. I know it's winter.. and the cold dry air (ha I said dry.. I live in Alabama for crying out loud get real Mollie) can make hair a bit more difficult to manage than at other times. But COME ON.


This is 2 inches of uncontrollable Alfalfa crap going on here!! I thought.. well maybe it's because I dry my hair upside down.. so I dry it right side up... nope. I thought.. hmm maybe if I put some smoothing cream in it that will help... nope. I thought well.. I'll try some heavy duty conditioner and some anti-frizz serum and surely THAT will make it lie down flat.


NO!!!!!!


I took that picture this morning in the bathroom at work. I KNOW people can see it.. I can see it clearly.. and beyond slathering the top of my head with Crisco and doning a toboggan (hat) I don't know what to do. (The slathering with oil thing.. that's so not a real option, I'm just venting).


So if anyone else has ever experienced this particular floating hair phenomenon and managed to come up with some kind of successful remedy.. PLEASE TELL ME NOW!!

Ah boy..

Just some funniness I stumbled across on the web today & thought I'd share

Not exactly the kind of advice you'd expect on a Sunday morning...

Monkey See.. Monkey DooDoo?

My Niece....

This is a video of my niece Miss Marley Claire riding her new tricycle she got for Christmas. She'll be 2 in April. OMG she's getting soooooooooooooo big.. I ♥ this child so much!

LOVE how she rocks to try and get it going! LOL

Tag... I'm it!

10 things

Once you've been tagged you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts or habits about yourself. At the end you choose ten people to be tagged, list their names, and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you've been tagged!" on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog

1. I wanted to be a fighter pilot when I was a kid.. even though I was terrified of flying lol

2. I was Dusty Goff's first "girlfriend". We "went steady" for about a minute lol.. I still remember him writing I Love Mollie in the fog on the school bus windows =)

3. I used to do Jason Rogers' algebra homework in the mornings sitting in the commons before class started

4. I went by the name JoJo (my middle name is Jo) from birth until the 6th grade. When Mrs Manton called roll a boy (I think it was Michael Usry~we later became friends) laughed and said "what kind of name is that for a girl". I've been Mollie ever since... I miss being called Jo though.. I think it fits me better.

5. I lived in a shelter for domestic abuse for a week when I lived in Michigan. My ex-fiance threatened to blow up the house of the people I lived with so they kicked me out. He was full of bull, but evidently they didn't want to take the chance.

6. I found out at that time what it meant to "hit bottom". I was homeless, jobless and had no money to put gas in my car to go look for a job, but Praise God I managed to get back on my feet. At the time my family couldn't be bothered to even send me $20 for gas.. and they wonder why I'm not any closer to them than I am.

7. I learned last year that conversations with God don't have to be one sided (praying). If you open your heart to listen.. He really talks back =) and He's a pretty awesome fella

8. I ended 4+ years of celibacy a few weeks ago and now I have no idea why. He's a really great guy.. but he wasn't worth breaking the promise I'd made to myself. Now... there's nothing I can do except start over.

9. As much as I miss Michigan, I realized last week that I really enjoy living in Mobile. I live downtown in the historic district and it's simply beautiful. I walked a mile to the store and back this past weekend just because the weather was nice and I knew it would be a pleasant walk. I've never done that anywhere else I've lived.

10. To copy one of the statements from the gal who tagged me. I've come to realize that in spite of the time that's passed in between talking, I still have some pretty terrific friends.. and I am so appreciative of them.

Tagged: Lori, Karen W., Nikki, Tracy, Theresa, Randi, Karen D., Rhonda, Donna, Jennifer

Why: Because in some way, small or large, they've all had an impact on my life. =)

According to the stars...

I don't usually put much stock in horoscopes.. they tend to be too general.. and with enough hopeful thinking pretty much anyone can make a daily reading apply to something in their life.

Today however.. my horoscope was so dead on it's creepy. I won't go into details but suffice to say.. the following "insight" into my life according to the planetary alignment and position of the stars is almost verbatim to what's been going on in my life lately.. and something that happened earlier today... freaky


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My Horoscope by Rick Levine

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)


Being overly emotional may not be your usual style, but expressing your feelings today can help you get what you want. You might be worried that an opportunity is passing too quickly and that you weren't able to make the most of it. Don't worry; an important seed has been planted, even if nothing concrete is happening yet. Water your plans with your dreams and fertilize them with positive thoughts.

I Believe...

Sometimes cheesy e-mail forwards are worth the minute it takes to read them...